It’s been a while! Hope you are all doing okay and feeling festive as we approach the end of 2019. Couple of things I wanted to announce.
First of all, as you may know, I am an avid writer and I love books. Always have and always will. I have decided this year to take part in NaNoWriMo (National Novel Writing Month) where you need to write a 50k word novel in a month. Hard but should be good and finally gives me some motivation to write the story I’ve had in my head for years. This is a different one to Designed to Exist that I started writing on my Wattpad. This one is a lot closer to me and therefore I will be keeping it to myself while I work on it. I am, however on 8.7k words already so I’m feeling good! Not quite where I need to be to win the challenge, however I’m getting in to the swing of things and looking forward to writing more and more.
The next thing I wanted to say is in regards to this blog. Honestly, I’ve kind of run out of ideas. I don’t really know what else you would need a guide on and I’ve had a lot going on with work these last few weeks so I think I’m going to be putting this on hold for a while. I might post every now and then and I’ll probably keep you updated with how I do in NaNoWriMo but I won’t be regular posting. What I’m hoping for is that when things settle down a bit, I can return to my plan with Koala Books and do some health updates every now and then for those who are interested in what life is like with CF.
Hope that was a little update for y’all and let’s you know a little bit more about what’s been going on in my life. Hope all of you are doing good and have a great end of the year!
Been a long time since I’ve posted and I just wanted to let everyone know that I’m all okay. Nothing major has happened except… I MOVED OUT! This time, I moved in with my boyfriend rather than just to university. Let me tell you, it’s a whole other ball park. The number of things you have to think about is ridiculous! So, I thought I’d write a nice little check list of everything you need to do when you move house (or at least everything I did).
Know what you want This one might sound kind of obvious but, when house hunting, it’s very easy to get drawn in to the allure of an extra bedroom or a large kitchen or even letting the estate agents talk you into looking at a property that’s miles away from where you want to be. The best thing to do is to write a list of what you need to have and what you’re willing to compromise on and stick to that list. For example, I did not look at any home that did not have a washing machine in it as this was a non-negotiable feature in my opinion. It really cuts down on the time spent searching.
Allow some wiggle room Budgeting is hard and sticking to it can be harder. The best thing to do is to leave some wiggle room. Many landlords or sellers (I’m renting so I don’t know much about buying) are willing to negotiate price a little and therefore, going slightly above your budget isn’t always a bad thing. Just don’t get too attached before you know if they’re willing to budge on price.
Pack a few days in advance I know with my move, I packed a couple days in advance the things I could live without, for example my massive clothing collection. This meant that when it came to actually moving, I just had to worry about things I used daily. This did include medication and that’s where the next step comes in.
If you’re a CFer, make sure you have enough medication For me, moving meant switching doctors and that meant going a few weeks without being able to get a new prescription. As well as this, you also need to make sure you remember everything. Not just the medication, but the equipment as well. I forgot my feed charger and, well, let’s just say a new one arrived this morning haha. Lists, lists and more lists are my main advice there.
Take your time Finally, moving is hard. Not only do you actually have to move all your belongings, but bills are a thing too and they can be confusing. Don’t worry if the furniture isn’t exactly where you want it first try. It’s your house, there’s no reason why you can’t move it around if you want. Bills are confusing and the best thing to do is not to rush into a contract. It took me a week and a half before I found a deal that was best for me. So don’t stress, worrying only makes problems worse.
So, if the main point wasn’t obvious in those tips, lists are key. List who you need to contact to change your addresses. List what bills you need to sign up for. List what furniture, if your house is unfurnished. LISTS! I practically filled a notebook!
Hope this helps anyone moving home and I have a big doctors appointment next week so will put up a health update after that. Have a great week everyone!
For anyone who’s following my writing, the next chapter of Designed to Exist is up on Wattpad! It’s a little bit shorter than the first chapter but I hope it carries the same emotion and connection to the story. Let me know what you guys think!
As some of you may know, I used to have a different blog focused on book reviews and other things which caught my interest. Through a long series of life events, I ended up leaving the blog and it eventually just kind of died. I believe it is still live, however I don’t post on it.
In recent times, I’ve decided that I should rekindle my love for books and my obsession with reading. The issue that I have (and really I think a lot of people go through this) is that I used to be madly in love with YA fiction. Things like the Divergent series or The Mortal Instruments. Around some time when I was about 16/17, I realised that all the tropes are the same and while I loved them at the time, I knew how it was going to end before I started reading them. It was then that I made the transition into more adult fiction. This transition was actually harder than I anticipated. I realised a lot of contemporary/romance novels that I enjoyed became too predictable. I ended up reading a lot of non-fiction books for a while which really helped in terms of academia (and increased my interest into a lot of areas of science) however didn’t really inspire my interest in fiction.
Through looking at what kinda of story line I enjoy and talking with some friends, I’ve finally found a book that’s sparked my interest!!! And so, without further ado, I present Koala Books – a new segment on the blog for book reviews, writing updates and possibly some tips and tricks. Should be up and running once I’ve finished this book. The first book to be reviewed is The Passage by Justin Cronin. I’ve got a hospital admission in the next few weeks so the 960 off pages should help pass the time. Don’t worry, I will still post CF things, just want to keep the blog active while I don’t have any CF specific content – plus I love doing this kind of thing!
Welcome one and all to yet another post not about CF. I feel like I should just rename the blog and everything. Anywho, getting on with the post, how many people reading this reached the age of 18 and suddenly became an adult.
Legally, the answer is everyone 18+ but that’s not entirely what I mean. I’ve gone down the path of most people these days which is once I left high school, I went to university. At uni, you start living on your own. This involves cooking, cleaning and generally looking after yourself. This I found okay. Whether it’s because I’ve been looking after myself in terms of medication for a while or I’m just an independent person naturally idk. What I do know is coming home this holiday had the weirdest series of events yet.
I haven’t passed my driving test yet (it’s on Wednesday so wish me luck) so I’ve been driving around with my parents to get some practise. I also cooked dinner yesterday and stayed at the house with my younger brother on my own. It sounds kind of silly but there was this thought process that went through my head where this is actually okay. This is how life will be and it’ll be me forging my own way in life rather than doing everything with my parents and it just felt weird.
Basically, what I’m trying to say is that when become an adult, it’s more of a mental thing than the legal thing. Sure, you might be 18 but in my opinion, it’s when you start spending holidays at your own home or making plans without asking your parents and it being okay is when the mentality really kicks in and that’s something that no one really tells you. I would be lying if I said I wasn’t excited for the rest of this year. I move in with my boyfriend, I (hopefully) pass my driving test and get a job. All big milestones and I can’t wait.
This post goes to show how many important miles can happen regardless of your health. If anyone else has an opinion on becoming an adult or other milestones you accomplished, let me know and other than that, hope all is well with you!
So last weekend I watched Five Feet Apart for the first time with my boyfriend and let me tell you, it was emotional. So, as promised, here is my review of it! (There will be a tl/dr at the end and there will not be spoilers throughout).
The Story Where do I even begin with this story! First of all, it is being compared to TFIOS (The Fault In Our Stars). If you ask me, it’s a million times better than TFIOS because it’s real. Without putting in any spoilers to those who haven’t read it, the ending was amazing. I felt that it was so rare to have an ending that wasn’t obvious but also was powerful, moving and, ultimately, real. I can’t relate to the very fancy hospitals (I mean they had a POOL) or the fact that there’s the six feet rule (where I’m from, you’re not allowed to see each other at all) but those were small things that you can look past. I found that, in terms of the emotion of it, you can get through the first half pretty well. It’s the second half where you already have the attachment to some of the characters, that you start to feel emotional and, honestly, I cried. I cried a s**t ton. My boyfriend did too, so overall, the film gets a pass on the story.
The Characters The film has three main characters with CF and highlights the different relationships that you have with people when you have CF. First off, you have Stella. Stella is a 17 year old girl who is on the waiting list for a lung transplant and in hospital to keep her health up. Next, you have Will. Will is also a 17 year old CFer, however he has B. Cepacia and is on a drug trial to resolve it. Finally, you have Poe, Stella’s best friend. I felt that these characters were so realistic. You had Stella, a girl who “lives for her treatments [rather than] doing her treatments to live” and Will – who doesn’t see the point in doing treatment if he’s going to die anyway. I think, personally, that everyone with CF can relate to both of these characters in one way or another. First off, for me, I find that on some days I’m Stella and on other days I’m Will but mostly I’m some weird kinda mix between the two. I thought that adding in a third character with CF helped expand the plot. With Poe, we got to hear about relationships with someone without CF and the conscious knowledge that you’re putting your health onto someone else and that you know that one day, you’re going to leave them alone. (Just a PSA here, if anyone reading this has this thought in their head regarding their relationship, I will tell you one thing that my therapist told me: It’s not your decision. It’s up to them what they bring into their life and if they’re okay with it then you should be too). He also highlighted the challenges facing CF friendship – one key part being not being able to hug each other.
Overall Overall, this film was great. I would maybe give it an 8/10 just because there’s only so much uniqueness another teen romance involving terminal illness can get. If you have CF, take a look at some reviews and maybe even read some ones with spoilers so you know what you’re getting yourself into. For a couple of days after watching it, it made me feel a weird kinda way about life and my health and everything so it can be very confrontational. If you don’t have CF, I think it’s out of cinemas now but if you can watch it online or on DVD when it comes out, you’ll love it. The representation and the realism is so important to us with CF that we want as many people to experience it as possible.
TL/DR Characters – amazing, very realistic, depth to them and moderate character development throughout, showed pretty much all possible relationships you can have with someone with CF (ignoring familial) Story – unique, real and the ending had so much emotion and good intent (if not very practical in how it was done) that it really was the perfect way to end the movie – in my opinion Overall – 8/10, if you have CF, think before you watch otherwise GO WATCH IT!
So yeah, that’s my review. I did really enjoy the movie and sometimes it’s cathartic to watch a sad movie. I hope if you’ve seen it that you also enjoyed it and if you haven’t maybe go check it out!
So, on this lovely Tuesday evening of ours, I thought I would just write a post that wasn’t CF related. I decided it would be best to focus on things that help distract us from the negatives in our lives, whatever that may be for you.
For me, it consists of writing, Netflix (cliche I know) and certain forms of art. If you’ve been reading my posts for a while, you’ll know that I love writing. Fiction writing specifically. When I was younger, you could never separate me from a book. I would always bring a book with me – even when I knew there wasn’t going to be time for me to read – just in case we had time to spare. Sometimes I would bring two if I was towards the end of one so I could read something else if I finished the first one. Reading transformed into writing and I wrote so many things. Stories varying from fairy-tales when I was about eight to more sophisticated stories like short horror stories or contemporary fiction.
I find that writing helps to calm my mind. It takes my brain away from my world and transports me into a world entirely of my creation. Sometimes, it feels like I’m watching the story in my head and trying to communicate that through the screen. Every good piece of writing I have done has started from one image in my head or an idea that turned into a concept that turned into a series of images. Finding new ways to articulate that is a feeling that I love and I always turn to that if I need an outlet.
Netflix – I think that one is self-explanatory. Good luck finding someone who doesn’t binge on Netflix.
I would in no way call myself an artist. I have some friends who are artists and they create beautiful pictures and paintings and landscapes in all different media. However, I find water colours relaxing to look at and to watch other people paint. My goal for this year is to learn how to water colour and I think I’m getting there. Before you ask, probably won’t be putting any up on here for a while but I love creating smooth gradients and hope one day to have enough skills to put the images in my head onto paper. That form of art is a bit more intense as it requires more concentration so I only do it when I feel like pouring my focus into something.
Another form of art I enjoy is cross-stitching. Yes that makes me sound like a grandmother but I find it relaxing. I’m just following a template at the minute of one I found online. It’s a pretty large piece of material so it will take me years but let me tell you, good music or Netflix and stitching when I don’t have to think is a wonderful thing.
So that’s what I do to take my mind off things. I want to say to everyone that it’s never too late to start something new. I know all the famous dancers, singers, artists, musicians or really anyone with a good skill says that they’ve been doing it since they were young but you don’t have to be the best at something to enjoy doing it. Life is short and enjoyment is all we get out of it so if you want to paint, then you paint! If you want to sing, sing till your voice is gone. You’re only as good as you want to be.
That’s all from me, also wanted to put a little note out that the prologue and first chapter of a book I’m working on is up on Wattpad. It’s called Designed to Exist. If you read it, make sure to let me know what you think. Trying out this genre for the first time but feeling really passionate about it. Much love to everyone and hope the rest of your week is as great as can be.